My Struggle For Balance Between Mind and Body

I am so frustrated with this weight issue. I am miserable about the way I look now, and not just that, but the way it makes me feel physically. I feel like this body is not mine. It is not me. I struggle daily with it. It doesn't seem to matter what I eat or how much, I can not seem to lose it. Or I might lose a few pounds and shortly later, I've gained double that amount.

I don't have the patience to stay on a diet. And I crave junk food like crazy. All my blood tests say I'm healthy and there is no real real go reason other than my cravings get the best of me. I don't get enough exercise, just moderate. I am tired all the time, no matter how much I sleep. All I know is I've gotta do something. I'm not finding much balance between mind and body. And I am happy emotionally and I feel secure, except when it comes to my body. I've always had a negative body image, even when I was real thin.


My self worth was always based on my appearance. I had no self worth and I always thought I was fat. Now I am happy and I do have self worth. I feel good in every other area of my life. I want my physical appearance to reflect that. That is something I have to work on and it won't easy because eating is what I do for comfort, for fun, when I'm bored, when I'm happy, sad, stressed. It's not alcohol anymore, which hurt everyone around me, but this is hurting me. I'm not obese, but I am pretty overweight. And that is hurting me.
I don't feel completely whole because this is the one area of my life I can't seem to get control of.

I know what I need to do, it's a matter of motivation. I want to wake up in the morning thin and beautiful, without having to workout. I want the weight to come off now! It's that attitude, "I want what I want when I want it and I want it now, dammit!" That attitude is no good. I get discouraged so easily. I pray the Lord give me strength through this struggle just as did through my alcoholism. I pray for motivation to do what I need to do.

Luckily, my husband is so wonderful and thinks I am beautiful and sexy and never makes me feel otherwise. I don't doubt his attraction to me. Maybe that is why I am so happy and comfortable and have let myself get this way. I am grateful for a man who loves me no matter what. But now it's up to me.

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